It seems like my life these days is made up of these little moments. Lots of "I love yous" and "Can I cuddle with you?" and "Mommy come sit by me" and Kate's most endearing "Thank you for knowing me Mom." LOTS of these moments lately and I am so overwhelmingly blessed. And sometimes I think what if my life had turned out different? What if I had been absent from work that day he and I met? What if right at the beginning I would have said this is too much and I'm out? I wouldn't have my Kate and Carson. And the thought of that puts a huge lump in my throat and painful tears come to my eyes. Painful tears. I just can't imagine doing this any other way. Even if I knew everything I would have to go through I would still have stepped on this path with out another thought if it meant I would get to meet Kate and Carson. If I would get to be their Mommy. There's no price I wouldn't pay, no experience I wouldn't walk through just to be way where I am today. I think my kids will need to know this someday. I think they will need to know. "You were worth it." Worth everything.
|My most favorite girl in the whole wide world.|
|My most favorite boy in the whole wide world|