Back in the Game

The day that Jared got laid off at the oil rig my heart sank for several reasons. Not the least of which was in the back of my mind I knew that that the possibility of me working again was very strong. Well the time has come. It's time for me to get back out there. I knew it was inevitable and I am trying to face it with positivity.Yesterday I accepted a position at Citifinancial. I will start March 23rd.I know that God is blessing our family with this job and I have no doubt he will take care of our kids with extra special care during this time of transition. I am excited to get back out there. But I am sad to leave my kids. Always a double edged sword. But I won't sink into the pit of despair like I did last time. That was not good for anyone. I am at a better place Mom wise now and I know of who I am more as a Mom. I really believe that God gave me this time at home so that I could grow that aspect of my life under His loving care. And grow I did. I know how blessed I am and He has set me up so that I take nothing for granted. Not one single experience. I drink it all in. That's what this is going to be about. Quality time with my boy and girl.We are so incredibly blessed.This time I won't waste my time thinking of everything I am missing. This time I will spend my time thinking about everything we will do when we are together.Will you please pray for me that I can keep a good mind set about this transition in all of our lives? Will you please pray that I can be the best Mommy I can be and not get overwhelmed and crushed by the guilt that comes with this transition? Oh the guilt can be so consuming and self defeating.It is one of Satan's key weapons with me. But this time I will not let the guilt guide me and tell me what a terrible Mom I am. I will let God guide my steps and tell me who I am.